shyboi88@shyboi.com

I think I'm a very shy person, really. [blushes]

Besides that, exams are in two or three weeks' time and like most other people I'm not really prepared. I'm not giving excuses but like I have said many times over, I think having to travel for so long and at such ungodly hours is going to affect my ability to study. I am not giving excuses either but I totally cannot study at home.

To add to that, I think this few weeks I'm not optimal - I can't really put myself in the studying mood.

But a wake up call will be that in Uni, every semester counts.

So I have two options: 1) stay in school to study every night, and take the stupid public bus back every night or 2) stay in school every night and be an illegal squatter at someone's hall room. (Haha)

But like I said I'm a very shy person so.

Yes.

Hahaha.

the importance of spelling

Got this from a chain mail which because I am so bored, exasperated and jaded at the same time, I decided to open. And alas, it's actually quite interesting.

fi yuo cna raed
tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too. Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of
100 can.

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod
aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan
mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in
waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the
frsit and lsat ltteer be
in th e rgh it pclae.
The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs
is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod
as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

hearts

I see hearts and I feel sad.

Honestly, I'm watching Grey's Anatomy.

first semester

http://www.darfurisdying.com/

Check out this site, I think it's a pretty interesting way of getting the message across - because fun and games appeal to most people. But to me I'd think it's a tad ineffective because the severity of the situation isnt as clearly laid out to the player as a high-res picture of suffering would have. Our lecturer told us to view this site and play the game during her lecture - and what struck me was that most of us were having more fun trying to escape from the militia van rather than actually get the real message behind it.

Humor is a powerful tool to broach sensitive and severe topics, but overdo it and you have completely the opposite effect.

In other news, I feel jaded and in need of a change. Hopefully changing a few facets of my blog will help, because I haven't touched it for the good part of a month. So to whoever is still reading yeap this is a rare update indeed.

Please be patient and wait a while for the songs to load up. You are lucky if you can hear them because I only have a small amount of bandwidth a month, so once it's used up well this site will be silent until next month. Yeaps.

School wise, all the CI Club stuff for this semester is at least, over for the most part. Means we'll have no more excuses to slack off. Exams is in a few weeks time, like 3 weeks or lesser? But somehow none of us feel prepared enough for them. Blame school, blame the travelling, but I'm currently feeling jaded and tired... Bored, solitary, going crazy. I don't seem to have anything to look forward to? Okay maybe not that bad.

Went jamming with Hello Daniel Club yesterday. I'm not going to elaborate on our band name. But it was a great experience. Although we were all unprepared (me, mostly because I couldn't learn Sobakasu, which was essentially 20 guitar solos put together, in two days) and faced equipment problems (I'm thankful for modern amps like mine and the ones I use at the studios I've been in. The Marshall Valvestate and Line 6 at the LMS studio is a bit greek to operate, and my Burny sounded very hollow and treblish no matter how hard I tried to adjust the settings. The Line 6 was greek too as compared to the boutique Line 6 Spider at TIET. Like how the signal automatically cuts off all of a sudden.)

Nonetheless I'm impressed. Joe's bass was kickass, our makeshift drummer proved to be better than all the drummers I've had in the past, Aloysious' vocals were awesome, and so were the female vox. Aloysious was also unexpectedly good in guitar, especially the jazz, blues and classical kind - and he's also a magician to top it off. The female vox's voice was really powerful for that kind of song. Ok I'm not giving excuses but half the time my fingers were freezing off from the music studio's air cond, and I was tired after walking from CS through mountains and hills and countless steps.

Ok, what else. The projects are coming rather fast and furiously at the moment. And as of now I have yet to begin doing my 203 research project. Honestly, travelling is really really tiring and time-consuming. Everyday 3 hours get wasted through sleeping in the train, and 3 hours is a long time. Not to mention the energy involved. I seriously need a hall room, but NTU is not the most efficient organisation around. To conclude, I seriously need a hall room.

To come to that, is it me or do I tend to feel isolated and distant at this time of the year? Last year before the 'A's it was also the same... maybe I've been addicted to the warmth of friends who aren't all busy with their own lives. Amongst everyone else I think I'm quite an introvert, most times I sit around with people I can't find things to talk to them about.

Oh, and I sent my mockingbird for a mod, a decision which I regretted once I signed the deposit. It's going to set me back by $500, $300 of which is "Workmanship and related costs". The tremolo arm, a floyd rose set itself cost only $100. Gotoh tuners cost another $100. Of course, Guitar Connection is like the old school workshop in Singapore with their experience with custom guitars, so I suppose I can trust them to do a good job.

And congratulations to Cheryl for getting the FOC Chair! Good luck, seriously! I've been through planning orientations and other events before, it's not even a camp or a large part of a camp, but it's really a killer job. Trust me. So thankfully you picked a competent vice-chair who will really be very helpful to you. I have no interest in running for main comm positions but if you need my help in any way just tell me yeah? Haha. Must be very random.

I want to know how my brain works, so I can tweak it to think in a certain way. Get rid of the sadness, get rid of the loneliness. Boost the endorphins and make myself happy and high all the time. Think positively all the time, not negatively. Look at everyone equally, rid myself of the prejudgments.

But that can never happen can it?

Now this is getting very disjointed, please get used to my blog posting style.

My hard disk drive is running out of space. I have full seasons of a couple of series and a mumle jumble of all kinds of stuff. And it is tempting me to invest further in yet another storage solution. If a hard disk drive is a container then data must be gaseous, because they expand and take the shape of any container they fill (yes, I remember, wow I'm going to be a famous scientist)

I wanna smash someone's head. Please tell me to refrain.

And I miss my JC friends. I realise I've not seen them for a long time. The guys especially. Councillors too. But somehow when we have left the school the bond isn't as close anymore. Must we always have a rotation of friends?

What's the obsession with clubbing anyway? I can never figure out why i) people drink alcohol in obscence concentration and quantity ii) girls wear nice clothes, skimpy clothes and downright sluttish clothes to clubs, drink like nobody's business, gets wasted and dances with every guy who's just there to ogle and gyrate and grope around and she doesn't mind iii) guys spend over hundreds of dollars a night trying to impress girls by buying drinks all round, dancing all night and hoping to get laid, when they happily forget to look into their mirrors and get a perception check on how people think they look. I am none of the above, if you don't already know.

But if my band gets gigs at clubs, oh for sure I'd come down. Haha.

Anymore random?

I shall give everyone a chance, an equal chance. So try not to piss me off because then I'll be unhappy. =(