back to business again, i guess

Like i predicted, I spent all five days of the post-prelims doing nothing but gaming and slacking. Watching movies, sleeping, reading novel, sleeping, et cetera, anything but studying. Basically all alone. Hah. Like those people who end up pangseh-ing me when we already decided on an outing.

So the last real break before As has been wasted. To many, maybe this period weren't spent slacking, cause they woke up during the prelims last week and started mugging real hard in regret, but me, well. I'd love to be positive but I think I put in a lot of effort into this prelims and hopefully all goes rather well. Either way, I'll mug very hard starting tommorow, again.

Yea, November please come. Bring it on, you damned papers.

Basically one month and counting, to freedom.

adebayor was shit until he scored. Then he became shit again.

Being phoneless might not be that bad after all. Haha. Can go out without parents hounding me even though I'm already 18 and more likely to kidnap people than to be kidnapped.

Been listening excessively listening to Dragonforce and their 'trance' music. Must admit that it's not even a nice song, just impressive. Cause the guitarists Herman Li and some other bugger can play the guitar until it sounds like techno, that's how fast they are. It's kinda crazy but its the kind of amazing stuff you get to see on youtube.

I believe it's a curse to debate how you did for prelims on blogs, cause everytime I do that results come out otherwise. So I shall just say today got Econs paper, tommorow got History and Math. Setting off for sch soon to study for econs...

Anyways last night was a great thriller. Arsenal could have won by so many goals, while stats deceivingly shown Man Yoo to attempt many more shots. Shots which were like from outside and even halfway, like Lehmann can be beaten that easily. Solksjaer is still damn good, C.Ronaldo is still that irritating, and Adebayor shown that he is totally shite once more.

It is amazing how all the articles applaud him for scoring the winning goal because had Arsenal lost, or drew, Adebayor would have been vilified. To be frank, he did run and run like no tommorow, but wasted too many chances, and not to mention the dive to win the penalty. One look and you can tell its a dive. Maybe the guy got a pretty high c.g. or smth, but.. oh well. Really, every time Rosicky, Hleb or Fabregas slice the defense for him he always bumble the ball and give the ball back to Man Yoo. Maybe we're making comparisons with Henry, Pires, or even Walcott, those technically more impressive ones, but Adebayor missed so many chances he was kind of lucky he scored. And about running more, in the WC when I watched Togo play (yes i watch Togo play. Now you know why I screwed mid years) you can see Adebayor everywhere, defending, bringing the ball to attack, taking shots, challenging defenders, as though the other 10 players are non-existent. And I swear, I swear he could control the ball better there.

Maybe Man Yoo's incompetent groundsmen forgot to drain the pitch, so many people from both sides keep slipping and falling. Haw haw. And Portsmouth is gonna win the league.

Oh yea, the referee was super duper dumb. First, he had to book Lehmann wrongly for handling the ball outside the box, when the ball was obviously on the line. Just because Rooney raised his hand then referee book. When his view was blocked by Rooney and Lehmann, that's a crap decision. Secondly, when Lehmann should really have been booked for grabbing O'Shea by the shirt and literally snarling at him, the referee only talked to him. Thirdly, the penalty he gave for Adebayor's dive was a joke, like really. Even Kusckajack (whatever) was cursing him after he saved Gilberto's shot. Ok maybe not in chronological order, but never mind.

Though I must comment, more and more people are adopting the "I don't care who wins the league, just not Chelsea" stance. I don't think Arsenal will win it, but I think along those lines too.

Why not PORTSMOUTH?

MINDFREAK

if u've watched the show before, he's pretty amazing, can make himself and a lot of other things disappear and all. Well Im pretty amazing too.

HOW ELSE DO ANY OTHER PERSON LOSE THEIR PHONE IN THEIR OWN HOUSE? Own room rather.

And here's what pisses me off most. It's like full battery, I don't owe phone bills, and I left it on my table like I always do.

So I went to bathe.

And when I returned. Voila. Probably something I did during bathing made it disappear cause I might have special talents as a magician.

Still amazing right? So I thought ok, I might have misplaced it. Calls to my own number heralded leave a message things. Ie, my phone was switched off. Like I ever switch off my phone? Okay. And my battery was full, remember.

Amazing right? And my amazing parents think I have amnesia and might have brought it downstairs went I went to the gym. Which I don't even remember doing. Even if I did, I remember receiving a call from big sis telling me to switch off her mac after coming back from my run. And playing with my guitar while replying sms-es with my shirt still sweaty and all.

Wow, either I have amnesia. Or I could suspect others of taking them. Who could have? There are essentially three suspects, but I hate to suspect people and hence I won't cause I HAVE NO PROOF and the bugger probably already went out to sell it and get rid of other evidence. DAMN COOL RIGHT? SO I'M THE FUCKING CULPRIT LA. I AM SO MINDFREAK L.O.L. I can make things disappear, whee...

What do I do now? Due to sovereignity concerns I am not able to search other people's belongings, but maybe theres another drastic scenario my mum offered:

Some joker entered my house and entered my room and found my phone on the table and took it. Right. Dead right.

Like my Japanese neighbor would anyhow attempt to open other people's main door, and out of 4 rooms open mine, and take my ulu handphone when compared to their 7 megapixel phone? Like some bugger can just get past security downstairs and pick a house out of so many friggin units and somehow luckily found the door open and went in to pick one out of four rooms where a phone was on the table and conveniently took it? Like why my room? Why handphone? My sister's mac was at the dining room table. So conveniently much closer to the door. My wallet was on my table too, why not take it along as well? Wow. Amazing.

So I have concluded, I must have magical powers. Cause I am either a prodigous magician who can make things disappear without intending it (if only I could make my maths tutor and GP tutor disappear, and prelims and A levels too) or I am someone who is so senile I probably threw my own phone out of the window without remembering (which explains why it is off and why it just disappeared, but the weird thing is my window is closed. If I even have one.)

Oh pray to the gods, grant me some more magical powers to make things appear. First I'll start with recovering my phone, then making some bomb guitar appear, then make lotsa cash appear. But I'll not be greedy I'll just settle for my SIM card.

You know those wonderful National Crime Prevention posters that remind senile Singaporean teenagers to not lose their phone (those lose your phone, lose your connections) - like damn true lah. I can't remember numbers for nuts except those important ones and those blatantly easy to remember ones so I'm kind of screwed. So please do me a favor everybody, mail me your HP number or message me on MSN or something so I can start anew. Thankew people.

And when I master the art of making things appear I'll repay your kindness. 1 item will appear for each who actually answer my calls.

GANNINA CHAO CHEEBAI LA. WHAT THE FUCK. U TINK FARNIE ISSIT? LAN JIAO. FUCK OFF LA BASTARD. MAMA NO KACHING COUP MY PHONE, NO BALLS IZZIT? COME OUT AND FIGHT LA. CHEE BAI.

smile =) the world is watching

On my way home today I saw something - unnerving to say the least. At Dhoby Ghaut station, after you alight there are at least four to five armed security men watching your every action to make sure you don't loiter around at the platform. Once you get to the station itself, there are three "Security Personnel" who will check practically anyone who seems lost and fidgety (even people who are going on a date and worrying about how they look will ganna) and yet another team of armed security men loitering around menacingly. Why do I say menacing? After all the average Singaporean will be very happy, saying it's more secure that way. Well, that's cause last week these same people weren't there.

Yea, I know it's the IMF and WB peeps' who are making the government all jittery. Like when you visit your in-laws in future, you gotta show that you can provide the girl with security and all, or you can bear them many grandchildren, or the like. The world is watching. They can't risk having a pretty blonde bombshell stripping at PS KFC can they? Or right in front of schoolkids at AMK? So maybe the increased security is justified. And they tell people to smile, spend bomb amounts on posters with people smiling like idiots. I thought Singapore was already a friendly place? At least that is what you were taught by NE to be. So why do they need to re-remind their people to smile? And it's so bloody superficial cause they put these posters so blatantly even the WB and IMF visitors will know it's fake. I mean, so the IMF and WB are ignorant people who do not have watchmen here before they arrive? So much for putting on a smiling front.

But try going to Dhoby Ghaut just last week. The security men are basically non existent (I've only seen one pair before, and that was cause they were loading up some ATM) and the "Security Personnel" usually just slack around. This week? Dozens of security staff and the "security personnel" becomes more alert. In addition to numerous CCTV cameras already all around. What else would the big brass do in the name of security? Military police? Bugging phone lines? Recording all our online logs and chat messages? And all these are valid in the name of counter terrorism and security.

But how much more secure do we feel? Without those armed security men I somehow felt safer. Their presense had a sense of foreboding that something bad is going to happen, like they got a tip off about some terrorist plot or something. I'd be thankful if the tip-off was about a bevy of hot babes stripping in front of KFC. But these people are already banned, arrested and deported back to where they belonged. And locals don't exactly have enough balls to stage such drastic protests (prove me wrong please). Security? I've been reading a bit of other people's newspaper (peeking over their shoulders, no less) and seen images of more armed security men behind large metal fences somewhere in the Suntec Area. Reminds me of the norm in Indonesia a few years back, when there was the race riots and all. Security? Wow. What a calming effect these measures have.

But despite all that having been said,

Please smile, cause the world is watching.

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smile =) the world is watching

On my way home today I saw something - unnerving to say the least. At Dhoby Ghaut station, after you alight there are at least four to five armed security men watching your every action to make sure you don't loiter around at the platform. Once you get to the station itself, there are three "Security Personnel" who will check practically anyone who seems lost and fidgety (even people who are going on a date and worrying about how they look will ganna) and yet another team of armed security men loitering around menacingly. Why do I say menacing? After all the average Singaporean will be very happy, saying it's more secure that way. Well, that's cause last week these same people weren't there.

Yea, I know it's the IMF and WB peeps' who are making the government all jittery. Like when you visit your in-laws in future, you gotta show that you can provide the girl with security and all, or you can bear them many grandchildren, or the like. The world is watching. They can't risk having a pretty blonde bombshell stripping at PS KFC can they? Or right in front of schoolkids at AMK? So maybe the increased security is justified. And they tell people to smile, spend bomb amounts on posters with people smiling like idiots. I thought Singapore was already a friendly place? At least that is what you were taught by NE to be. So why do they need to re-remind their people to smile? And it's so bloody superficial cause they put these posters so blatantly even the WB and IMF visitors will know it's fake. I mean, so the IMF and WB are ignorant people who do not have watchmen here before they arrive? So much for putting on a smiling front.

But try going to Dhoby Ghaut just last week. The security men are basically non existent (I've only seen one pair before, and that was cause they were loading up some ATM) and the "Security Personnel" usually just slack around. This week? Dozens of security staff and the "security personnel" becomes more alert. In addition to numerous CCTV cameras already all around. What else would the big brass do in the name of security? Military police? Bugging phone lines? Recording all our online logs and chat messages? And all these are valid in the name of counter terrorism and security.

But how much more secure do we feel? Without those armed security men I somehow felt safer. Their presense had a sense of foreboding that something bad is going to happen, like they got a tip off about some terrorist plot or something. I'd be thankful if the tip-off was about a bevy of hot babes stripping in front of KFC. But these people are already banned, arrested and deported back to where they belonged. And locals don't exactly have enough balls to stage such drastic protests (prove me wrong please). Security? I've been reading a bit of other people's newspaper (peeking over their shoulders, no less) and seen images of more armed security men behind large metal fences somewhere in the Suntec Area. Reminds me of the norm in Indonesia a few years back, when there was the race riots and all. Security? Wow. What a calming effect these measures have.

But despite all that having been said,

Please smile, cause the world is watching.

****_**** _****
****| |*** | |****
****| |*** | |***
****|/****\|***
**_ ********_**
**\ \_____/ /**
***\______/***
***************

smile =) the world is watching

On my way home today I saw something - unnerving to say the least. At Dhoby Ghaut station, after you alight there are at least four to five armed security men watching your every action to make sure you don't loiter around at the platform. Once you get to the station itself, there are three "Security Personnel" who will check practically anyone who seems lost and fidgety (even people who are going on a date and worrying about how they look will ganna) and yet another team of armed security men loitering around menacingly. Why do I say menacing? After all the average Singaporean will be very happy, saying it's more secure that way. Well, that's cause last week these same people weren't there.

Yea, I know it's the IMF and WB peeps' who are making the government all jittery. Like when you visit your in-laws in future, you gotta show that you can provide the girl with security and all, or you can bear them many grandchildren, or the like. The world is watching. They can't risk having a pretty blonde bombshell stripping at PS KFC can they? Or right in front of schoolkids at AMK? So maybe the increased security is justified. And they tell people to smile, spend bomb amounts on posters with people smiling like idiots. I thought Singapore was already a friendly place? At least that is what you were taught by NE to be. So why do they need to re-remind their people to smile? And it's so bloody superficial cause they put these posters so blatantly even the WB and IMF visitors will know it's fake. I mean, so the IMF and WB are ignorant people who do not have watchmen here before they arrive? So much for putting on a smiling front.

But try going to Dhoby Ghaut just last week. The security men are basically non existent (I've only seen one pair before, and that was cause they were loading up some ATM) and the "Security Personnel" usually just slack around. This week? Dozens of security staff and the "security personnel" becomes more alert. In addition to numerous CCTV cameras already all around. What else would the big brass do in the name of security? Military police? Bugging phone lines? Recording all our online logs and chat messages? And all these are valid in the name of counter terrorism and security.

But how much more secure do we feel? Without those armed security men I somehow felt safer. Their presense had a sense of foreboding that something bad is going to happen, like they got a tip off about some terrorist plot or something. I'd be thankful if the tip-off was about a bevy of hot babes stripping in front of KFC. But these people are already banned, arrested and deported back to where they belonged. And locals don't exactly have enough balls to stage such drastic protests (prove me wrong please). Security? I've been reading a bit of other people's newspaper (peeking over their shoulders, no less) and seen images of more armed security men behind large metal fences somewhere in the Suntec Area. Reminds me of the norm in Indonesia a few years back, when there was the race riots and all. Security? Wow. What a calming effect these measures have.

But despite all that having been said,

Please smile, cause the world is watching.

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what are the odds?

hmmm... pocky "for men" isnt that bad after all. Dark chocolate sticks are quite nice esp with the heavy cocoa taste. In that sense dark chocolate really rawks.

Prelims next week... and uh... I'm not as badly prepared for this as I was for mid years... but I can't help but be a bit jittery and kind of resigned, expecting killer papers and all.

Try doing other school prelim paper and see lah. ACJC. After 4 questions I decided to stop cause the damned paper was ridiculously impossible with you having to twist your mind like into extreme overdrive just to figure out their way of thinking...

And quite sad, cause yet again a stupid team came with a bus in front of their goal. Can you beat this? Arsenal had like 24 shots against Middlesborough's 1 shot, and the final score was 1-1... Third straight match unlucky. Maybe its the curse of new stadia. Hai... buck up Arsenal.

Buck up, cannonball.

extreme product differentiation

if you eat this, supposedly you will become more manly.
Which is kind of dumb because it simply is a more expensive more bitter version of a pocky stick. Just a "perceived difference to make the demand for pocky sticks more price inelastic"

nee hontou ha dare mo
nee aisenai to iwarete
kowagari no kimi to deai
yatto sono imi ni kizuita
kizutsuku tame ima futari deatta nara
kanashisugiru yo

Hey, the truth is...
"I can't love anybody" was said
Having met the feardul you..
I finally caught on to that meaning
If now the two of us...
Met just to be hurt, it's too sad!

kokoro kara,
kimi ni tsutaetai...
ki-itto tada hontou no
kimi no sugata wo
motomete

From my heart I want to show you
Certainly simply seeking your true form
Don't you think you still laugh clumsily?
Because sorrow still suits you...

mada bukiyou ni warau ne
mada kanashimi ga niau kara
kimi to deau tame dake ni, so...
uumareta nara
kaerareru ka na...

If you were born just so we could meet
I wonder if it can be changed

kokoro kara,
kimi ni tsutaetai
kizutsukisugi dakedo
mada ma ni au yo.

kokoro kara kimi wo aishiteru
kimi ni furu itami wo
nugutteagetai subete...

From my hear I want to show you
We were hurt too much but we can still make it!
From my heart I love you
I want to wipe away the raining pain for you entirely

I for you... oh...

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai
kimi no egaoitsumo mitsumeraretara
kokoro kara kimi wo aishiteru
kimi ni furu hikari wo
atsumete agetai
subete..

From my heart I want to show to you
If I'm always able to gaze at your smiling face...
I'm loving you from my heart
I want to shine shimmering light on you, entirely

I for you.

i am so always right, mwahahaha

my mum keeps asking me why i go out to study every day. So she tells me to stay home today and try to study

12 noon: wakes up from deep slumber
1 pm: eat lunch
2 pm: opens maths tys to try to do some statistics
3 pm: starts reading blogs
4 pm: starts playng guitar
5 pm: zonks out to sleep
6 pm: zzz
7 pm: bathe/eat dinnner
8 pm: play some more guitar
9 pm: blogs

infer whatever you want from what i say. I will continue to keep your secret cause I consider you to be still my friend. When you have gotten over your insanity come back, and I will still be there as a friend for you. I'm just not comfortable with your behavior sometimes, because I do not trust easily. Whine and complain about how others dun measure up to your values of friendship, I don't really care. If you need me I'm there, otherwise dun be too fucking draggy about it. That's really all I have to say

silver swing shoes

now that it's come to this, alarm bells in my head are blaring.

I guess that's it. It never occured in that puny brain that I have my self esteem and pride too. That there's only so much jibing I can take. Do you ever see me taking jibes at what other people are most sensitive on? That's because I truly fear offending their deepest, innermost secrets. We all have them, and it's plain FUCKING respect for your friend and your self to not dig up their worst insecurities.

I think I have more "brudders" than true friends. Well, I'd keep it that way. "Brudders" rarely expect anything out of each other but to share fun times together. Well maybe my perception of friendship is warped.

I'm tired of keeping your secrets for you. Tired of listening to your deepest fears whilst at the same time having you point a kitchen knife at my throat. Tired of you claiming to be my friend yet placing a venomous barbed wire around the thing right in front of me. I'm getting really, really tired.

So I shall go back to sleep, despite sleeping for 11 hours already.

Art Of Life - what a masterpiece

Desert Rose, why do you live alone?
If you are sad, I'll make you leave this life.
Are you white, blue or bloody red?
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand.

The winds of time, you knock me to the ground.
I'm dying of thirst, I wanna run away
don't know how to set me free to live.
My mind cries out feeling pain.

I've been roaming to find myself
How long have I been feeling endless hurt
Falling down, rain flows into my heart.
In the pain, I'm waiting for you.
Can't go back, no place to go back to.
Life is lost, flowers fall, if it's a dream, now wake me up.
If it's for real, just kill me.

I'm making the wall inside my heart.
I don't wanna let my emotions get out.
It scares me to look at the world.
Don't wanna find myself lost in your eyes.
I tried to drown my past in grey.
I never wanna feel more pain.
Run away from you without saying any words.
What I don't wanna lose is love.

Through my eyes time goes by like tears.
My emotions losing the colour of life.
Kill my heart, release all my pain, I'm shouting out loud.
Insanity takes hold of me...

Turning away from the wall I can see nothing.
The scream deep inside, reflecting another person in my heart.
All existence you see before you must be wiped out.
Dream, reality, memories, and yourself.

I begin to lose control of myself
My lust is so blind, destroys my mind.
Nobody can stop my turning to madness.
No matter how you try to hold me in your heart.
Why do you wanna raise these walls?
I don't know the meaning of hatred.
My brain gets blown away hearing words of lies.
I only want to hold your love.

Stab the dolls of hate.
Wash yourself with their blood.
Drive into the raging current of time.
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly. "The earth."
Shout and start creating confusion,
shed your blood for pleasure. And what?
For love? What am I supposed to do?

I believe in the madness called "now".
Past and future prison my heart.
Time is blind, but I wanna trace my love,
on the walls of time over pain in my heart.
Art of life.
Insane blade stabbing dreams.
Try to break all truth now.
But I can't heal this broken heart in pain.
Cannot start to live,
cannot end my life,
keep on crying.

Close my eyes, time breathes, I hear.
All love and sadness melt in my heart.

Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living outside my walls.

You can't draw a picture of yesterday so you're painting your heart with your blood.
You can't say no, only turning the wheel of time with a rope around your neck.
You build a wall of morality and take a breath from between the bricks.
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them.
You're trying to commit suicide.
You're satisfied with your prologue, now you're painting your first chapter black.
You are putting the scraps of your life together and trying to make an asylum for yourself.
You're hitting a hell at the edge of the stage and you are trying to kill me.

I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself.
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.
Art Of Life
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth. Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live?
Do I try to love?
In my dream...

I'm breaking the wall inside my heart.
I just wanna let my emotions get out.
Nobody can stop, I'm running to freedom, no matter how you try to hold me in your world.

Like a doll carried by the wall of time.
I sacrificed the present moment for the future.
I was in the chains of memory half blinded.
Losing my heart walking in the sea of dreams.

Close my eyes, rose breathes, I can hear,
All love and sadness melt in my heart.
Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living my life, outside my mind.

Dreams can make me mad.
I can't leave my dream, I can't stop myself
Don't know what I am, what lies are truth?
What truths are lies?

I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.

Art Of Life.
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth.
Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live? Do I try to love?

Art of life.
An eternal bleeding heart, you never wanna breathe your last.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
Still I'm feeling for
A rose is breathing love, in my life...

good deal

hmm can u beat this deal:

someone offered to exchange his/her fender stratocaster for my 65 bucks acoustic.

cannonballkid\

If life were lived like a computer, here would be my last few actions...

C:\cannonballkid\--> set alarm 1100h GMT +0800 snooze="false"

C:\cannonballkid\daily_morning_routine.exe

C:\cannonballkid\check_mail.exe

C:\cannonballkid\mugging_location_finder.exe

C:\cannonballkid\connect_world.exe

C:\cannonballkid\--> set status:away [mugging]

C:\cannonballkid\cd mug

C:\cannonballkid\mug\maths
C:\cannonballkid\mug\maths\tys.txt

C:\cannonballkid\mug\maths\exit

C:\cannonballkid\mug\exit

C:\cannonballkid\--> set time 2300h GMT +0800

C:\cannonballkid\--> disconnect

-Successfully saved changes and closed connect_world.exe-
[Memory used: 2KB Total Memory: 99999GB Free Memory: 99998GB]

C:\cannonballkid\good_nite_sleep.exe

-Shutting down in 5 seconds-
-Shutting down in 4 seconds-
-Shutting down in 3 seconds-
-Shutting down in 2 seconds-
-Shutting down in 1 seconds-

-Good Night!-

how boring =(