shake it up, just like baaaaaaaaad medicine

Hmm, two days to the end of AJ. After that I won't have to wear uniform to school for the rest of my life. Estimating myself to live to 70 or something, that's like one third of my life gone, just like that. Without doing anything substantial. One side of me rejoices at leaving the hell hole that is sited in YCK. But the other side reminds me that it's not the place itself, but the people running it, as always.

Never mind.

I'm drowning in sadness,
falling far behind,
I feel there is no way out.
Is there anyone there? Where am I?

Insanity and loneliness,
tear my painful heart.
Broken heart keeps on going to beat,
but it never stops bleeding.

I've been waiting for love to come,
someone who wants to touch me deep inside.
Memories of my yesterdays,
careless words and deeds,
masquerade of love.
Got to find my way out of here.

I was blinded by dark desire,
over time, I've been through it all.
I'm crying my share of tears
What can I do,
will I make it through
I must be true to myself

Voiceless screaming,
calling to me, inside of my heart.
Voiceless screaming,
now is the time, I got to speak out.

Voice of faith, now I'm starting to realize,
now my eyes can see,
I have gone so far.
I'm feeling breath of life.

And I'm looking for love to reach
someone I want to touch deep inside.
Light shines on my sight of doubt
don't be afraid,
move forward one step,
willing mind is what I have found at last.

Voiceless screaming,
calling to me, inside of my heart.
Voiceless screaming,
now is the time, I got to speak out.
Voiceless screaming, calling to me, inside of my heart,
knocking on my souls door.
I believe in myself and trust what I do.
Voiceless Screaming
Pain of the past still hurts me inside
Knockin' on my souls door
I climb the stairs that lead me to Heaven.