tired

I realised I've been surviving on coffee and overdose of caffeine in my first real uni week. It's so tiring! I mean having a screwed up bio clock that makes me sleep only like 2/3 hours a day, then having to travel all the way to Boon Lay and then sit through like 2 hour lectures and taking notes religiously. No coffee means I become some sort of clam with an evil stare and the "ihateeveryonearoundme" look and menacing intent. Got coffee means my tongue starts loosening up, and I go a bit nuts. I think.

Live music society's first day was quite disappointing. Okay, I'm going to complain and bitch and diss off people, I'm so sorry. First off I think the seniors are really amazing and all respect for them - the only thing linking them together to form this CCA is the fact that they have an NTU band. Other than that they could have refused to enter the CCA as pioneer seniors and everything. The concept itself is pretty cool, gather all musicians together then hope they click and form a good NTU band. Though therein lies my grouses. Okay, the Chinamen band was pretty awesome, musically. After all the guitarist played GnR's Don't Cry note for note without any mistakes. But therein lies the problem, they are Chinamen, and they give the impression that they DOMINATE THE CCA! Like everywhere you see they announce themselves. Now don't be mistaken I'm not blindly anti-Chinamen, after all I do have a couple of friends from the PRC, and they are amongst my good friends as well. But its really the way they portray themselves. Also in the fray were a couple of weird guys... shan't say who, but they really freaked me out. So I left early since I was meeting Melvin for dinner in nearby hall 2. Okay that horrible experience doesn't really put me off the whole idea, I'm still for forming a band in NTU, so maybe I'll scour the forums and hope for the best.

And I think it's the tiredness, but I feel a lot of sudden bursts of angsts and the hate and anger in me. As though I'm turning.to.the.dark.side. Ok that's a bit of an exaggeration, but as of now I'm quite hypersensitive to people's actions, hopefully I'd be fine after a nice little outing with the 38 people later.

Oh, and though most of the readers won't know what I am talking about, my high E-string of my mockingbird snapped, and I took the chance to use deep conditioning fretboard oil on my fingerboard, I was like "woah!". That thing is really rigged - my fingerboard looks like ebony now, although it's rosewood, and it looks newer than new, I'm friggin swearing that it's true. I'm really absolutely sure it's an 8 dollars well spent for Dunlop's fretboard conditioner. Oh and I switched to using Dunlop strings. Still ultra light gauge, not as bendable as a Gibson string but it's a lot more solid, especially with a 1.0mm pick.

And what the fuck is the problem with being a guitarist who can't read musical scores so long as I can play a fucking lot better than you. Just fuck off.